Thursday, July 06, 2017
It's been three days since I found out what happened to you and I just need to write some of my thoughts. I need to write mainly because I don't if I'll ever talk to you or when. I know you will be fine. Even when I found out how bad your situation was, I knew that you'll get through it. Because I know you, you are strong and are still needed here.
Will you remember me? Will you still talk to me? I honestly don't know. But that's the least of my concern right now. All I need is for you to be fine. All I've been praying for is for you to overcome and go back to your old self. I told her I just wish your personality will come back - the sense of humor, okay na yung kakulitan pero baka pwedeng mabawasan ang tigas ng ulo.
Your progress has been amazing and I know in time, you'll be 100% fine again. This got me to ask a lot of questions. What happened to us? What did I do? It's more of what did I stop doing? I don't have all the answers. And knowing you, you don't expect any explanation. All I know is that, I stopped doing something to keep our relationship. I never stopped loving you, I never will. You will always be my one great love. You will always be that one person whom I wish I can come home to, that one person I can spend each day with. But that's not going to happen and I accepted that fully. Without thinking about things, ignoring my feelings and my thoughts, I let distance and time (timezone included) go between us. The feelings stayed with me but I stopped doing something about it. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've done and I didn't do.
Seven years ago, I made a decision to pursue my own path which means starting a family of my own. It was a conscious decision. I picked someone and went for it. It happened really fast. It was my way of coping. It was my way of saying "I don't want you to turn your back from them and I want you to stay with them but it hurts too much so I need to do something to cope with the pain. I need to find my way too." I was selfish.
I am selfish.
And I don't know if you will still talk to me or consider me as someone dear to you after everything I've done or failed to do the past few years. I am willing to take anything. One thing will stay. I will always love you. I will always be in love with you. I will also wish you're the one person I can come home to. I will always wish I can spend each day with you.
Posted at 04:15 am by ysabel112
Thursday, December 08, 2011
7 years and still very much in love with you
Posted at 06:42 am by ysabel112
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
W is a sign for win not for worry.
co'z you wouldn't receive something that you cannot carry;
the world is not perfect, sometimes we're sorry.
we're doing our best, we don't want it to be messy.
but there are times that circumstances are crazy;
but that doesn't mean we're working lazy.
yesterday has passed, we just need to be ready,
because today's another day, a day of your victory!
keep it easy
my sweet lady;
though it's testy,
just smile, feel pretty!
i miss you so much!
Posted at 12:43 am by ysabel112
Friday, February 04, 2011
You are always in my mind and in my heart
Posted at 02:20 pm by ysabel112
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
i know i shouldn't.
your love made me tough.
but am just being honest.
am afraid am not that strong after all......
Posted at 04:40 pm by ysabel112
Thursday, January 13, 2011
today- my bfast, your lunch!
YOU don't fail to remind me how much you love me.
thank you very much.
it's great to love you, it's heaven being love in return.
I LOVE LOVING YOU!
Posted at 12:06 pm by ysabel112